The Experiment: Part Five - Finale

 Today we complete my Friend's "Experiment" series

Why do certain photos call to us - move us 

Evoke such strong emotions within us?

What is it about those images

That touch us in that special way?

My Friend explores these questions

And in the process sets off on a journey of

Self-Discovery

If you missed them, 

you should read Parts One, Two, Three and Four first

They explain the reasoning and process behind this series

Here's the link to Part One (Link)

And also Part Two (Link)

And Part Three (Link)

And Part Four (Link)

This is a fantasy image for me. I would love to experience this setting with my partner. Just the two of us in this beautiful pool.  

 More intense eye contact. More passion. And this position has a significant impact on me. It is not conducive for long hard strokes, but I love to sit on my partner in this position and feel him inside me as we kiss and our torsos touch..   

 This photo makes me feel intense true love. The kiss with the bodies entangled and the penetration all combine to show nothing more than a complete act of love. 

 This is another photo that I have had for years and has always been one of my all time favorite pictures.  There is something about having sex with your partner dressed or partially dressed as if the passion is so hot, he doesn’t take the time to undress.  I visualize sitting at home naked and my partner come home and instantly enters me without wasting a second.  I have no idea where this picture came from, but I have never seen it again, nor any series or sets that it may have come from.  If this were a video I would love to see it, I think, or maybe it would ruin my love for this one picture.  

 Most people would see this picture as pure hard core pornographic material.  I look at this picture and see an expression of love in its purest form.  Trust of allowing your partner to be inside you, knowing you enjoy it because you are rock hard, knowing your partner enjoys it by the way he grasps your body and by the pleasure he express with his face.

 My favorite thing for my partner to do to me as we suck each other, is for him to finger me at the same time.  This causes multiple sensations throughout my body and mind.  He is the master of giving head, so there is that sensation, then the sensation inside me as he massages me with his finger magnifies that sensation.  Then finally there is the mental sensation of anticipating him sliding his cock in me, as that is what usually ends up happening after he fingers me.     

 This picture reminds me just how much I like to see a man from behind only able to see his ass and his balls.  This visual is even more erotic for my mind knowing that his cock is unable to be seen because it is inside his lover.  

 This is another one of my poor quality all time favorite photos. It was this picture that made me realize how much I enjoy seeing images depicting passion. This face and this grip makes me feel complete and total ecstasy.  For me, this image is magnified by this taking place outdoors and beside the swimming pool. This image appeals to my love for passion, anal sex, nudism, and skinny dipping.

 It is because of this exercise that when I come to this picture, I now know why I like it so much.  Anal Sex, Outdoors, Grass, and the imagination of these two faces that are unseen.  

 Another long time favorite picture of mine, I look at this and in my mind, I imagine this being a spur of the moment act of passion.  I look at it and imagine two nudists washing their car together, and without warning this happens.  I love the grass, I love the kiss, I love the feet, I LOVE the water splashing.  But again, I think more than anything, it is what my mind made up for this situation. 

 In this picture, I love the colors, but what strikes me the most is two EXTREMELY hard cocks, and the act of anal sex.  I also love this position as a bottom.  It gives me the control of how fast or how slow my partner slides is cock in and out of me.  It also allows me to watch my partner’s facial expressions as we engage, and it allows my partner to play with my cock as we fuck.  

 This simply appeals to my underwear fetish

 One more time: passion, two hard cocks, the feet, the facial expression and outside the bedroom. 

 Again, nudism with my partner in the home, sex outside the bedroom passion, kissing, nothing more than casual sex with my partner.  

 I love jerking in the sun.  The moment of orgasm is intensified when it is outdoors lying in the grass feeling the breeze and the sun on my body.  This picture brings that feeling to the front of my mind.  

 My Partner and I have been monogamous since that first time we made love in that hotel.  And while I do not advocate unsafe sex for people that are not monogamous, for me, one of the benefits of being in this kind of a relationship is the ability to feel my partners cum as he releases it inside me.  I can actually feel it when he shoots inside me and that feeling is incredible.  I think the feeling is both physical and mental. This being the case I have to admit another fetish of mine and that, I have a fetish for cum, especially internal cum shots where most of the time you do not even see the cum.  I do not like “fletching” clips where the bottom forces the cum to come squirting out, but when the cum naturally seeps out, it reminds me of the special relationship that I have with my partner.  

 The most intense orgasms that I experience are the times when I have an orgasm while my partner is exploding inside me at the same moment.  When I feel him release inside me and I release at the same time, the bliss is indescribable.  This picture reminds me of this amazing feeling.  The facial expressions, the passion, and the ecstasy, all give me a sense of the simultaneous ejaculation with my partner.  These pictures to most are probably considered nothing more that just hard core pornography, but in my head it is not that.  It is the most sensual feeling I can experience with my partner. The following pictures recall this sensation to my mind.  

 This picture represents a significant change of attitude for me.  For many years I was somewhat repulsed to enjoy this nectar from my partner.  He loved to devour every drop of my cum but I would never ever try his.  It was an unwritten rule of ours that if his cock was in my mouth he had to tell me before he would shoot so I could take it out and not swallow his juices.  This all changed one night about 7 years ago.  I woke up and he was sleeping there next to me and I realized he was full on hard.  I decided to treat him to a blowjob while he was asleep.  Soon enough, I could tell he had slightly woken up and was about to shoot his load.  I didn’t want to create a mess and have to fully wake him up to clean it up, so I told myself that I was going to force myself to swallow this load.  I did it, and to my amazement I actually LOVED it!  I don’t know if it was the excitement of doing it for the first time, or the realization that it was another expression of complete and total intimacy, but I LOVED IT.  Every since that night, if he is not shooting his load inside me, I excitedly beg for that juice to go into my mouth.  When I see this picture, I feel that desire for my partner’s intimacy to slide down my throat.   

 I am not a robot, and there have been times when my partner and I are having sex, that he is able to achieve climax and for what ever reason, I am just not able to get there just yet.  This picture brings to mind my favorite cure for this situation.  I have my partner shoot his load on my cock, then I will use his cum as a lubricant on my own cock, and there is something that is extremely erotic to me by this, and EVERY single time, I reach climax within 60 seconds.  Again, for me there is something extremely intimate by using my partners cum to bring pleasure to my own body.  

 This picture is not passionate to me, nor is it erotic to me, it simply excites my cum fetish. It is like taking a bath in your own jizz!!!!!!

 On the contrary, these two pictures are extremely erotic, and passionate to my senses, as well as to my cum fetish.  Go figure??

No doubt, I am stimulated by many of these pictures by my conscious and subconscious memories.  It is not surprising that memories evoke stimulation when a picture has some element that recalls that memory, but I am surprised by how often it turns out that memory is from the subconscious.   

I am also not at all surprised that my fetishes and fantasies evoke stimulation when I look at a picture has elements of such fetishes, BUT I am interested to find out I have certain fetishes that I wasn’t completely aware of.  My love for underwear has never been a secret to me, but it never occurred to me that along with this fetish, I love bulges.  It is also interesting to me that some of these fetishes actually go back to when I was extremely young.  Even before I really knew what it was that I liked, I had obsession for men’s bulges.  I think that my bulge fetish comes from the fact that as a young boy this was the beginning of identifying my sexual preference, and as an adult I embrace that love for bulges as part of my “heritage” ha, for lack of better word.     

This experiment has taught me a few things about myself.  I can see that my experiences growing up have significantly impacted my subconscious.  Some of my fantasy and fetishes seem to have existing within me and some level from as far back as I can recall.  I was able to identify some fantasy and fetishes that I did not actually realize I had.  Homophobia from those around me had a extremely negative impact on my life all the way up until the age of 27 years old.   I think I have also come to the realization that given an opportunity to do it all over again, I would have made some different choices and been more honest with my friends and my family, but more importantly, I would have been more honest with myself.  This experiment has been a major step in me being even more honest with myself and has actually given me some liberating feeling within me. 

I think this experiment is going to continue to grow.  The deeper I dig the more that comes to my mind.  I don’t know where this will ultimately end, but I do know that so far, it has enlightened me and has been extremely therapeutic for me.    I believe I am going to call this portion of my experiment Phase one.  As I continue to collect more data to analyze with a Phase two one day in the near future.  

The End (for now)

The Experiment: Part Four

 Today we continue with my Friend's "Experiment" series

Why do certain photos call to us - move us -

Evoke such strong emotions within us?

What is it about those images

That touch us in that special way?

My Friend explores these questions

And in the process sets off on a journey of

Self-Discovery

If you missed it, 

you should read Part One, Two and Three first

They explain the reasoning and process behind this series

Here's the link to Part One (Link)

And also Part Two (Link)

And Part Three (Link)

When I look at this picture, the first thing that takes my attention is the color.  Next is the windows around this bed.  Then the kiss.  Then the visual of the bottom’s balls from behind.  And then finally the penetration.  

 Here is another picture that I am excited over because of two things.  The facial expression of the bottom, and the hard cock of the bottom.  I have come to a conclusion that for me, when I look at a picture like this and the bottom is as hard as you would assume the top is, I feel like this is more than just pornographic material, the bottom in this photo is enjoying what is taking place and not just performing for my benefit.  I also love the passion of the kiss on the neck.  

 This picture is highly erotic for me.  Anal penetration that is not visible. The muscular bodies completely embraced while making love.  The passionate kiss and the grasp on the shoulder and the hard cock…there is so much going on in this picture for me. 

 This picture brings back bitter sweet memories for me.  I say bitter sweet because while today, me and my partner still love each other as much as we did back then, but over the years, the infatuation for each others physical bodies is not the same as it was during the early stages of our relationship.  Back then we frequently had moments like this.  Just hanging out together in the house watching TV or talking and we would enjoy casually playing with each other.  It was not uncommon for these times to last for hours and sometimes never ended in climax, just us enjoying each other’s company and bodies.  

 This photograph takes me to the 10th grade in high school with my friend Kyle.  Kyle’s much older sister had recently had a wedding and there were cases of champagne left over.  Kyle’s parents were out of town one afternoon and he invited me over to drink some of the champagne.  We were drinking and obviously got a little drunk.  After a while I knew I had better stop or I would get sick so when I stopped drinking so did he.  He asked if I wanted to go swimming in his pool, but I declined because I didn’t have a swim suit.  He insisted it is not a problem as I could go skinny dipping and so that I wouldn’t feel embarrassed, he would skinny dip as well.  After swimming for a while we got out of the pool and went up to his room as there happened to be no towels downstairs.  As it turned out there were now towels in his room either so he suggested we air dry.  I laid on his bed and he started talking about how big my cock was and that caused me to start to get hard.  He asked if he could touch it and of coarse I let him, then he asked if I had ever been sucked  by A guy before, and I told him no, (although this wasn’t true).  Then he asked if I wanted him to suck me to see what it felt like.   I said that I was afraid he would tell someone, and he assured me he wouldn’t so I said ok, just for a minute.  This picture looks exactly what I felt like as he sucked me to a full orgasm and he swallowed every drop of it.  This was obviously not his first time! 

 I don’t know why I like this picture so much.   The only thing I can think of is I love this position, and I love the way they stare in each other’s eyes and they have sex.   I also notice the plate glass window above the bed.  Now I see another pattern developing with the windows, and I ask myself if I have exhibitionist tendencies?  My love of nudism is enjoyed in the privacy of my home with only my partner, or in secluded nature environment.  Not for the purpose of anyone seeing me, but what is it with sexual acts and windows?  

 This photograph is another one that makes me feel like it is a portrayal of genuine love between to men.   The facial expression, the arms wrapped tightly around the neck.  And again, I am aroused as much by what you cannot see as I am by what you can see.

 Another portrayal of passion, I love kissing my partner while having sex.  I also notice the feet again, and I am again noticing the open window.  

 OK, again the feet, the kiss, sex outside the bedroom, and the open window.  Let me stop and explore my feelings.  I have always liked to see feet.  I have never considered it a fetish, but if I think about it real hard, I have to admit when I see feet in a photograph, I am drawn to them, so I must accept this perhaps is mild fetish.  And this is one that I have never thought about before, but the windows in the background means something.  I recall back to the times I have sex with my partner.  I never close the curtains if they are open.  I also do feel an added excitement during the warm months and the windows are open and I can hear activity going on outside.  Is it excitement of possibly getting caught, or is it the excitement of the possibility of someone seeing us?  

 This one is easy for me to determine what it is that stirs my emotions.  The one thing I like more than being naked outside, is having sex with my partner outside. Then there  is the grass in this picture which for some reason is a big turn on for me.  I also  love this position, when done at the correct angle, there is a certain amount of pressure on the “G” spot along with a pressure on other things inside me that intensifies the sensations inside me.  Another thing that is a major turn on for me as the feet touching as if during sex they are “frotting” their feet.   

 I absolutely love to have sex standing up, and in this picture there is that, along with the open window….   I now say I am somewhat of an exhibitionist.

 This picture has the passion again.  The stare in each other’s eyes.  I love this position and there is another element.  During sex with my partner, I like for him to touch my cock, stroke my cock, suck my cock, sit on my cock, etc…  But when my partner is inside me getting ready to release, I like to have full control of my own cock so I can time my orgasm with his so that at the precise moment he is shoots his load inside me, I can release mine.  That perfectly timed simultaneous orgasm makes everything feeling more intense.  

 Again, sex outside the bedroom on the couch, and the legs spread to receive the partner as the partner gently fingers him to relax his muscles.  Very erotic to me!

 The pleasure displayed by the facial expressions is extremely erotic to me here.

 I think this picture could be an award winner.  I like the black and white feature, and even more I like that it is faceless, but the grip of the arms is a strong expression of passion that is being experienced by this couple, then there is the unseen aspect that leaves much open for the imagination.

 Are they talking, are they making out, are the fucking, are they after glowing, are they…????? It doesn’t matter, they are loving! 

 Again, so many aspects in this picture appeal to me.  The first thing is the Kiss is the “focus” of this picture.  I also am drawn to both partners are rock hard which gives the feeling that they are both enjoying this encounter.  There is that foot again… Then there is the cocks touching, frotting. I love my cock rubbing against my partner’s cock.  For me this is as intimate as kissing.

 The emotions stirred up within me, by this picture, is the proof to me that I DO have a foot fetish.  I love licking, sucking and touching my partner’s feet when I  have sex with him.  The facial expression of this bottom is very intense.  I think to myself, what does he like most, the foot play, his partner inside him, making love on the sofa, or caressing his partner’s butt?    

 This photo is loaded with passion!  The hands all over each other, faces locked in a passionate stare, the bottom is rock hard as his partner massages his prostrate with his cock.   

 My imagination sees the exact same thing in this picture as well. 

 This photo is also loaded with passion!  Again, the element of the bottom with a hard cock, and the feet are there, but in this picture there is a reminder of something from my past.  The mirror beside the bed.  Back in the late 80’s and early 90’s mirrored closet doors were popular. Me and my partner had one in our bed room and I remembered that I loved to see our cocks slide in and out as we made love to each other.  It was always easy enough to see myself as I would enter my partner, but when he entered me it was hard to see until I realized how to watch him through the mirror.  HAHA, now I know why mirrored ceilings were so popular in the 70’s.  

 Two more pictures loaded with passion.  The tight grip by both partners, the legs tightly wrapped around the top.  Extreme ecstasy and picture shows that.   

 I am seeing another pattern, along with facial expressions, I am also moved by eye contact.  I love the way this bottom holds on receiving his partner and maintains intense eye contact.     

 There was a night that we lost electricity in our home.  Cool winter night so without any lights, or TVs me and my partner decided to take advantage of a romantic evening by the fire place.  We rarely have a fire going so there was the excitement of having a fire, and the excitement of being forced to entertain each other so we made a pallet by the fire place and drank some wine while eating some snacks.  Then we began some very erotic foreplay the ended up in very passionate sex.  The exciting part was since we where without any other form of entertainment, we had multiple orgasms that night before falling asleep there on the floor.  The next morning,  we made another fire and had breakfast there as well.  Looking at this picture recalls that special evening.

 Passion, naturism, outdoors, feet, hands, grass - Need I say more? 

Continue on to read
The Experiment: Part Five - Finale (Link)